HOME FOR THE SUMMER

Universe, yes you, was there any doubt in anyone's mind to which I was talking to you…Yes you. You are a fighter; I can see it in your eyes. You might not think you are, but that won't change how it really is, will it Universe. You're still young, still growing and moving through your adolescents; you just don't have the experience yet to really have clear eyes when you look at things; always so angrily. It's okay though, you will grow and learn and what you thought yesterday as being the hardest type fact, well, will seem flabbier in its nature. We understand this, we understand this because we are you and you are we. We are all young and thinking we know everything, it all seems for sure and timeless. We look into you for our understanding, all with different eyes and skewed visions of your light, and you discover yourself by our progress – you begin to understand yourself by us. So perhaps you're angry because that's how we choose to look at you; so violent sometimes. Time will tell Universe, time will always tell, even though we choose to forget those lessons from generation to generation, but time will tell when there's nobody to know, because you will still be here – blind, deaf, and dumb – but still here.

THE JOURNEY AFTER...

So much happens in a moment; so many things occur. One moment holds infant possibilities and seems to pass us by as if it were nothing, leading us into the second moment, and then the third, and finally on into that black unknown. I take these moments for granted not ever thinking about how much energy goes into their creation. We create these moments. You create mine and I create yours. Without each other these moments mean nothing, without everyone there would be no moments. It's something quite beautiful in the way it all works, something wondering and pause creating. Something that has both the possibilities of leading us on into our lives, our make us take a step back, silently gaze outward, and be, live, excite and feel this place.

This is where my path has taken me. I have spent some time looking outward in silence with the moment. I'm not sure what I've learned so far, but it will come in time. I don't really know if I'm suppose to know yet. I know I'll get up in the morning, I'll put my pants on, go to work for a time, then maybe think some more, scratch some more notes down in the comp book. Nothing will come of it, at least in the moment of tomorrow, but that is such a small scale perspective. The long term is what I'm aiming for, and when that knowledge comes, those days scratching in the comp book will be worth it all. Things feel close but just not there yet. I'll keep making my marks in the paper and keep working towards it all, a smile on my face, and enjoying the moment for what it is - life.

This is just the start here....a week or so in...so the journey continues...full of moments leading into the next.

OLD BRICKS AND NEW FOUNDATIONS

What do we do when everything tumbles down, collapse, and falls around us? We stand in the dust for a moment; we let it over take us completely, we let it in. It will be dark in the beginning. It will get darker still as the moment slowly passes us by. But after that moment, a shimmer of light will appear, small at first, but there. Soon our vision will grow. Bricks will be scattered around us; some broken, some still usable. An old foundation comes next. Old memories of the old structure, but which can never be again. It’s the nature of the fall. We pick up that first brick that's still good at our feet, we hold it tight into our arms, and we place it back onto the old foundation. We take pieces of the old broken bricks still scattered around us and connect them back together to form different construction. Starting at the bottom we begin building again. We make trips to the hardware store and find new bricks which can be added back into the structure. Over time, something will appear, rebuilt, something bigger, something grander, something worth the time it took to rebuild. Here's the first brick, one which landed next to me, still strong and solid. Here's putting it onto the foundation, and here we begin our journey...